Oh yeah, I am lonely

I have been there,

An ear to some,

One to care,

At times just to shun,

I may not be the first you came to,

But I never showed you my back,

Maybe you were lost in the blue,

And I didn’t show you the right track,

But I believe I gave you comfort,

I believe I made a little difference,

I tried to understand why you were hurt,

I tried not to make you tense,

Whenever you spoke of those who broke your heart,

I remembered those who broke mine,

I knew I would be overlooked from the start,

But I still gave you my time,

Maybe you felt good,

Maybe you didn’t,

Maybe I changed your mood,

Maybe I just couldn’t,

But did I ever ask,

How come you thought of me?

Before me, where did you bask,

Before me, who did you see?

I did feel connected to you,

I did feel we were together,

But I guess I was just a sink to you,

Just as you felt better,

Oh yes, I did hear from you,

At times when you were down and out,

And then you were gone before I knew,

And I had lost another bout,

It wasn’t just one of you,

Yep, there’s a myriad of yous,

Guess I didn’t have a clue,

That I was just your muse,

Who allowed you to imagine,

Who heard your inane thoughts,

Who alleviated your pain,

Gave you high like a few tequila shots,

One thing I would agree to,

I spoke of my life too,

But then do you anymore have a clue,

How difficult it is for me too,

And I am lonely now,

I guess I am more than that,

I just don’t know how,

And when I stopped being the careless brat,

I don’t know when I first happened,

The first time I shed a tear,

First time my heart saddened,

First time I admitted to my fear,

And I can’t recall it,

And no one else could either,

Coz’ I alone know that bit,

And my memories too whether,

It would all be erased,

Coz I shared it with none,

My pain wouldn’t be embraced,

And to your eyes there would be none,

I admit to it now,

I was wrong,

And I know how,

And the feeling is growing strong,

I should have let someone in,

And now I just am too closed,

I feel as if I have committed a sin,

And I dislike it the most,

Oh yeah, I am lonely,

As lonely as it gets,

My days are no more sunny,

My heart always frets,

I wish I too had someone,

Who offered me a soft shoulder,

Not make me a tool for pun,

And kick me like a boulder,

Oh yeah, I am lonely,

As lonely as it gets,

I smile, but it’s no more funny,

Like I am paying for my past life debts,

Oh yeah, I am lonely,

As lonely as it gets,

Oh yeah, someone else too is lonely,

All the tears my eye sheds,

Oh, yeah I am lonely,

As lonely as it gets…

Love One Love All

Mohit Chopra

1.10.2010