Random thots of u...

You often tell me,
How well I play with words,
You let your mind free,
And with it my heart flirts,

You ask me how my day was,
You let me know about yours,
And then there’s an inadvertent pause,
As we encounter some closed doors,

A few questions left unanswered,
A few doubts in the mind,
You feel as if I never bothered,
And I just turned blind,

To the idiosyncratic ways,
With the way I live my life,
Looking for a few bright rays,
Overcoming the strife,

I have troubled you a lot,
A bit possessive I may have been,
Tensions were brought,
When we ventured on paths unseen,

But relished holding your hand,
And at times you in my arms,
But you slipped out like sand,
Without the slightest of alarms,

Still we lingered,
As I hoped for us,
Though I never figured,
If there was a way for us,

I still remember how beautiful it was,
The time when we begun,
We never looked for a cause,
There was no task to be done,

The pristine self was so simple,
Not a glimpse of trouble,
Each smile carried a dimple,
Always pulling me out of the rubble,

For the first time I gave up,
On life being just about myself
For I was too deep in love,
And I was looking for your help,

People tell me,
No matter what happens,
There would be good times to see,
Even though life saddens,

You just need to stick on,
And love as much you can,
As light comes with dawn,
Life will help you with your plan,

But I chose to give up,
As it was too much to take,
As I felt I was stuck,
And there was too much at stake,

I don’t repent,
Neither do I regret,
But sometimes I miss your scent,
And the way you fret,

Maybe I was too close to you,
And you never reached that stage,
I wont lie I do miss you,
But I have lost the rage,

May you do well,
And I come over things,
And have another story to tell,
And songs that my life sings…

Love One Love All

Mohit Chopra
24th Oct 2009
11:05- 11:25 pm

Darkhwast hai is raat se

darkhwast hai is raat se,
khamosh kar de mere khayalon ko bhi,
ke chain nahi mila hai in ankhon ko kab se,
udhaar de de kuch neend inhe bhi,

ke ojhal ho jaaye uske khayal chupke se,
pata na chale mujhe bhi,
aur main fir ja milun zindagi se,
na jagaun is raat ko bhi...

Ke ab main...

ke ab main aatish ki tarah hun,
ke ab main dil me lagi jalan ki tarah hun,
ke ab main baarish ki tarah hun,
ke ab main dil pe lage marham ki tarah hun,

ke ab main ek aansu ki tarah hun,
ke ab main mazboot kaandhe ki tarah hun,
ke ab main mehkti sason ki tarah hun,
ke ab main sab hun par khud nahi hun...

Kisi ki chahat hai...

Kisi ki chahat hai,
Ya khud ko hi dhund raha hun main,
Ye nahi mohbbat hai,
Ke bas ek dost dhund raha hun main,

Jise keh sukun,
Kya dil me hai,
Jis se puch sakun,
Har baat main,

Ke chod diya saath unka,
Jo the mere saath,
Ab karta hun intezaar kiska,
Failaye apne haath,

In viraani galiyon ko,
Khud hi to maanga tha maine,
Zehan sochta hai kisko,
Gam ka cholla pehne,

Ke baat nahi koi karne ko,
Jayaz bhi nahi ab koi guftagu,
Ke gumraah sa ho gaya hun ab to,
Kho gayi hai meri rooh,

Kis mugaltim me jita hun,
Ke sab nahi hai mere bas me,
Kyu nahi samjhta hun,
Ke nahi nibhayi jaati hai sab kasme,

Kuch to baat hai mujme,
Jise main nazarandaaz kar deta hun,
Dhundta hun main chain tujme,
Aur apne hi noor ko andekha karta hun,

Par fir bhi zarurat to hai,
Kisi ajnabee ki,
Ke adhuri meri kahani hai,
Mukamal nahi zindagi,

Ke dua ab to bas hai yahi,
Ke mila de ye hawaaein tujhse,
Dur na ho jaun tujhse kahi,
Ke chup na ab tu mujse,

Mil ja mujhe, Mil ja o ajnabee, Mil ja...

LOVE ONE LOVE ALL
MOHIT CHOPRA
29 April 2009

I want to get back

I want to get back,
To the person I was,
I do want to get back,
To each of my lost cause,

I just want to smile,
As pristinely as I did,
So that things no more pile,
And break off the lid,

Well on second thoughts I don’t want a lid,
To bound me anymore,
No desire should anymore be hid,
No dream should turn sour,

I want to cherish the beauty,
Of each little moment,
Not to go running behind any booty,
And give up what time lent,

I want to see the joy,
That I saw when I looked at the sky,
Not thinking of some ploy,
Or just asking everyone why?

Why was it I to suffer?
Why was it I to blame?
Why was it I to flounder?
Why was it I who was lame?

I no more want to write about the pain,
I seem to know what all I don’t want to do,
I don’t want to hide my tears in the rain,
But about my future I seem to have no clue,

I want to set out,
Jump off that building,
To efface all doubt,
It’s not about self-killing,

It’s about enduring each day,
Each minute is a gift,
It’s like a child’s play,
Where everything moves swift,

The innocence hides all dismay,
The simplicity makes them giggle,
Chances are you’ll forget any fray,
And there’s always someone to mingle,

So here I end this story,
As its better to act than plan,
As in there’s no hurry,
But I would do everything with élan…

LOVE ONE LOVE ALL

Mohit Chopra

11th April 2009

Will i ever be with you again???

one day i saw you,
another i didn't,
and before i knew,
i just couldn't,

probably i shouldn't have said goodbye,
maybe i was just looking for a reason to fight,
maybe i was too dumb not to try,
and let you go off my sight,

i know i had issues,
but so did you,
but you were my only muse,
pure as the morning dew,

i no more seek any answer,
i have let go off many things,
i have dropped my armour,
have cut my wings,

i know i shouldn't miss you,
i know i shouldn't go back on my words,
but i no more have any clue,
my mind is like the flocking birds,

and as i see you passing away,
i just want to feel the innocence again,
that i saw when you did play,
on the swings,though a bit inane,

i dont know if i should,
but i dont wanna give up,
i have done all i could,
and there have been many a hiccup,

but i kept moving,
as i had said i will,
but times have been testing,
not the same old run of the mill,

I just want to try again,
so that we can remember each other with a smile,
i dont want our relationship to go in vain,
coz it was more than just a while,

i know it is difficult for you to trust,
but you know that i can adapt,
our memoirs may have caught rust,
but some have been well kept,

i dont want much,
just the chance to cherish my past,
i dont hope much,
but i believe these things would last,

so please give it a thought,
not litter the beautiful times,
the hapiness they brought,
are much purer than our crimes...

Love One Love All

Mohit Chopra

1-4-09

tHE PaInFuL dAYs

tHE PaInFuL dAYs

22.5.08

in the silence of the night,
i am eager to hear a voice,
the voice of my inner plight,
why is it not able to make a noise?

i seldom give myself a chance,
to make peace with my soul,
i just give it an inadverdent glance,
and wander away from my goal,

but was it that i seek,
beacause i just beat around the bush,
my fortune seems a little bleak,
very badly needing a forward push,

every thought seems so shallow,
each emotion so fake,
failure after failure to swallow,
putting my life at stake,

no more can i take the pain,
no more the thought of losing it all,
no more can i let everything go in vain,
it's high time for me to make a call,

to stand up,
and tell myself,
no to give up,
and believe in self,

it's i who made it here,
it's me who will go burning down,
it's me who has nothing to fear,
it's me who will have to frown,

i see all of it going away,
the radiance changing to dim skies,
no one looks like is here to stay,
the world is full of lies,

the friends i thought i had,
the people i was counting on,
are the ones making me sad,
it's like life's singing the wrong song,

i no more expect much out of anyone,
i don't do much myself,
i think my golden days are gone,
and i have become an elf,

no more able to reach,
evrything seems so far away,
it's something time had to preach,
taking away all the gay,

but i will bounce back,
at least i wish to do so,
and once again i'll be on the track,
and that day everyone will know,

that i can do it,
alone, if i may have to,
their eyes may not be lit,
but they'll surely get to know...


LOVE ONE LOVE ALL

MOHIT CHOPRA