I still hope ...

I still hope,
That you will stick by,
I still hope,
That you will stand by,

As you have done,
Through thick and thin,
As you have done,
Angel you have been,

I still wait,
That you’ll ask what’s wrong,
I still wait,
For you to join me, sing our song,

As you have given,
Me so many reasons to smile,
As you have given,
Love to me, all this while,

I still ask you questions,
Hoping you wouldn’t mind me asking,
I still ask you questions,
And tell you how I feel, without hiding,

But I feel you are letting go,
Of me and my side,
But I feel you are letting go,
And I have nowhere to hide,

I can’t see you going away,
Coz I never thought you would,
I can’t see you going away,
I loved you as much as I could,

But you were not mine I knew,
As you held someone else in your heart,
But you were not mine I knew,
I was just ferrying you around in life’s cart,

I still hope,
That I’ll see you again,
I still hope,
All this doesn’t go in vain,

And I will always hold you close,
To my heart and my soul,
And I will always hold you close,
As you are indeed my soul…

Love One Love All
Mohit Chopra
17th May 2010 11:00 – 11:10 pm

yun hi kuch likdh diya tha arso pehle, aaj phir pad ke ehsaas jaag uthe...

Kyu kisi k intezaar me,
Har lamha jine ko man karta hai,
Kyu kisi k pyaar me,
Khud ko bhula jaane ko man karta hai,

Kyu kisi k liye,
Sab kuch bhula dete hai hum,
Kyu mere liye,
Kuch bhula nahi sakte tum,

K kyu main yu chahu,
Aur kya main keh jaaun,
K kya tum ab chaho,
Kya main kar jauun,

Baat ab ye nahi,
K tum mujse pyaar nahi karte,
Baat ab ye bhi nahi,
K tum mera intezaar nahi karte,

Baat ab ye hai ki,
hum chah kar bhi nahi milte,
baat ye hai ki,
alag ho gaye hai humare raste,

k ab kya hai kar sakte,
k shayad bahut dur hum nikal aaye hai,
k ab kya tumhare bina hai hum ji sakte,
ya hum tumhare hi ho gaye hai,

par tumhari tamanaon me hum shaamil nahi,
shayad tumhe khush rakh pane k hum kaabil nahi,
k shayad humari koi bhi koshish mukamal nahi,
k shaayd is samundar ka koi saahil nahi,

ab to yahi darkhwast hai tumse,
k mujhe dur na karo mujhi se,
k aaj main ye puchne pe majbur hu khudse,
k aisi bhi kya khaata hui mujhi se…

I don't know how to get you back...

one day i saw you,
another i didn't,
and before i knew,
i just couldn't,

probably i shouldn't have said goodbye,
maybe i was just looking for a reason to fight,
maybe i was too dumb not to try,
and let you go off my sight,

i know i had issues,
but so did you,
but you were my only muse,
pure as the morning dew,

i no more seek any answer,
i have let go off many things,
i have dropped my armour,
have cut my wings,

i know i shouldn't miss you,
i know i shouldn't go back on my words,
but i no more have any clue,
my mind is like the flocking birds,

and as i see you passing away,
i just want to feel the innocence again,
that i saw when you did play,
on the swings, though a bit inane,

i don’t know if i should,
but i don’t want to give up,
i have done all i could,
and there have been many a hiccup,

but i kept moving,
as i had said i will,
but times have been testing,
not the same old run of the mill,

I just want to try again,
so that we can remember each other with a smile,
i don’t want our relationship to go in vain,
because it was more than just a while,

i know it is difficult for you to trust,
but you know that i can adapt,
our memoirs may have caught rust,
but some have been well kept,

i don’t want much,
just the chance to cherish my past,
i don’t hope much,
but i believe these things would last,

so please give it a thought,
not litter the beautiful times,
the happiness they brought,
are much purer than our crimes...


LOVE ONE LOVE ALL

MOHIT CHOPRA

1-4-2009

Random thoughts of an idle mind...

I cry out loud,
Each day and night,
M crazy without a doubt,
My minds in a fight,

I rock n roll,
Each morning I get up,
I rise and fall,
Still my heartbeats drop,

I laze around,
And the dates change,
Thoughts do hound,
They are just out of my range,

I save my pain,
For times unknown,
Joy goes in vain,
Memoirs to mourn,

How much it aches,
Throughout my soul,
As my hurt wakes,
To a big dark mole,

They call me names,
Hide my existence,
Abuses and shames,
Bounded by a fence,

They want to teach,
How they wanted to be,
Just to preach,
And for the world to see,

They say it’s relevant,
For my growth,
It sounds important,
A stain on the cloth,

That I wear,
When they are with me,
Time to spare,
But they take away my glee,

Just follow orders,
Just be a dummy,
And that’s what bothers,
Hang around like a sissy,

Oh dear, I am lost,
Yes I am indeed,
Befriending a ghost,
Feeding my greed,

I have never been here before,
Never had a chance to dance,
I want to be wild to the core,
Not just give it a sideward glance,

No more want to be perfect,
Just to be loved,
It’s ok being circumspect,
Till I am loved,

I want to sing,
To the tune that plays,
Just do my thing,
Whatever my mind says,

There was such a time,
When I was funny,
But it has been a change of clime,
My days are no more sunny,

No reason to worry,
Just want to get over it,
Oh yeah, I am in a hurry,
And my eyes are lit,

Coz’ I see what is beyond,
Beyond the idiosyncrasies of me,
Of myself m fond,
And that does bring some glee,

So put on your ear plugs,
Coz m gonna shout,
Get lost you thugs,
Coz from now on I’ll be loud…


Love One Love All
Mohit Chopra
24 January 2010

It’s one of those days...

It’s one of those days,
When I just wanna close my eyes and think of you

It’s one of those days,
When I don’t mind getting barked at by your dog,

It’s one of those days,
When I don’t wanna to rush through the breakfast to beat the traffic,

It’s one of those days,
When I don’t wanna to shout at some for not driving well enough,

It’s one of those days,
When I wanna keep driving when I have to drop you somewhere on the way to office,

It’s one of those days,
When I don’t wanna take any calls on the way and just listen to you,

It’s one of those days,
When I wanna kiss your forehead before you leave my sight for the day,

It’s one of those days,
When I wanna run madly in the office corridor,

It’s one of those days,
When I wanna take the day off and drop by each of my college buddies,

It’s one of those days,
When I wanna take them out and talk of the fun times we had together,

It’s one of those days,
When I wanna fight to pay the bill at the restaurant,

It’s one of those days,
When I wanna go shopping on the street and bargain just to show off,

It’s one of those days,
When I wanna jump in the puddle of water just to make you smile,

It’s one of those days,
When I wanna climb on to the mango tree and look what’s happening in the neighbor’s house,

It’s one of those days,
When I wanna grab a cycle and circle the whole playground,

It’s one of those days,
When I wanna get wet in the rain and let the cold air shake me,

It’s one of those days,
When I wanna take a dip into the lake and swim as you watch me from the deck,

It’s one of those days,
When I wanna have u sleep on my lap while I read out my poems to you,

It’s one of those days,
When I wanna spin round and round till I am dizzy enough to fall down,

It’s one of those days,
When I wanna dance on the streets and laugh back at the people who laugh at me,

It’s one of those days,
When I wanna sing out loud till someone shouts at me to shut up,

It’s one of those days,
When I wanna watch back to back movies and still go for more,

It’s one of those days,
When I wanna dress up just to go for a walk,

It’s one of those days,
When I wanna cook for my family and have dinner with the TV switched off,

It’s one of those days,
When I wanna call you at the night and not worry about saying Good Night,

It’s one of the days,
That I wanna live and not just dream about,

It’s one of those days,
When I don’t just want to let it be but do all that I desire

Love One Love All
Mohit Chopra
7th May 2010

Oh yeah, I am lonely

I have been there,

An ear to some,

One to care,

At times just to shun,

I may not be the first you came to,

But I never showed you my back,

Maybe you were lost in the blue,

And I didn’t show you the right track,

But I believe I gave you comfort,

I believe I made a little difference,

I tried to understand why you were hurt,

I tried not to make you tense,

Whenever you spoke of those who broke your heart,

I remembered those who broke mine,

I knew I would be overlooked from the start,

But I still gave you my time,

Maybe you felt good,

Maybe you didn’t,

Maybe I changed your mood,

Maybe I just couldn’t,

But did I ever ask,

How come you thought of me?

Before me, where did you bask,

Before me, who did you see?

I did feel connected to you,

I did feel we were together,

But I guess I was just a sink to you,

Just as you felt better,

Oh yes, I did hear from you,

At times when you were down and out,

And then you were gone before I knew,

And I had lost another bout,

It wasn’t just one of you,

Yep, there’s a myriad of yous,

Guess I didn’t have a clue,

That I was just your muse,

Who allowed you to imagine,

Who heard your inane thoughts,

Who alleviated your pain,

Gave you high like a few tequila shots,

One thing I would agree to,

I spoke of my life too,

But then do you anymore have a clue,

How difficult it is for me too,

And I am lonely now,

I guess I am more than that,

I just don’t know how,

And when I stopped being the careless brat,

I don’t know when I first happened,

The first time I shed a tear,

First time my heart saddened,

First time I admitted to my fear,

And I can’t recall it,

And no one else could either,

Coz’ I alone know that bit,

And my memories too whether,

It would all be erased,

Coz I shared it with none,

My pain wouldn’t be embraced,

And to your eyes there would be none,

I admit to it now,

I was wrong,

And I know how,

And the feeling is growing strong,

I should have let someone in,

And now I just am too closed,

I feel as if I have committed a sin,

And I dislike it the most,

Oh yeah, I am lonely,

As lonely as it gets,

My days are no more sunny,

My heart always frets,

I wish I too had someone,

Who offered me a soft shoulder,

Not make me a tool for pun,

And kick me like a boulder,

Oh yeah, I am lonely,

As lonely as it gets,

I smile, but it’s no more funny,

Like I am paying for my past life debts,

Oh yeah, I am lonely,

As lonely as it gets,

Oh yeah, someone else too is lonely,

All the tears my eye sheds,

Oh, yeah I am lonely,

As lonely as it gets…

Love One Love All

Mohit Chopra

1.10.2010

Own It...

As I was sitting in one of the sessions my boss was taking on leadership and motivation, my mind tumbled upon a few thoughts and after a very long time my pen yielded a few words on my perspective about life and how we live it in these demanding times, and how I believe we should live it. Seldom have we planned to succeed, most of the time we are busy thinking of scenarios we will fail in. we keep trying to find out ways to avoid those situation, rarely do we look t finding solutions to those hindrances. If at all we accept the uncertainty and prepare ourselves with an open mind and owe the responsibility of getting a task done, then we wouldn’t be deterred by any challenge. One of the weasy way to get out of such situations is to find loopholes in what depends on others, but the success isn’t met by walking on the easier path. You need to recognize the fact that trying to control scenarios and drive outcome would lead you to a path of uncertainty, instead if you try to control your own actions, thoughts and how you plan to drive yourself through times, then you would increase the probability of achieving the desired outcomes. You should work on expanding your sphere of influence, when you have the gift of influencing others, you don’t need to control them.

The only thing that we tend to get consistent with is digressing. Often it is taken as negative characteristics, but I ensure that I digress from my chain of thoughts so that I can explore even more ideas. But I try not to forget that I still need to control when I digress. It’s important to time your thoughts in a manner that you don’t lose your concentration on important things. After all we need to be aware enough to apply our views to situation and that will only happen when you have a rational and open minded approach to things. Challenge your mind to digress so that it is sound enough to challenge others minds as well. The strategy should be to be intelligent enough not to blindly questions others just for the sake of it but to analyze their point of view and understand it in a what to align it to the goals you have for yourself or collectively for the group. People say that trying alone is not enough, you need to perform but I suggest that trying isn’t that bad either to start with. Not get bogged down by the pressure of performance, try it out and see if you even intend to perform and in case you don’t, make it clear. You may suffer a bit, but that would solely depend on your choice of right and wrong and what you deem as valid for yourself.

At times it may happen that people would ask you to share your point of view and when you do so, they will try to convince you with theirs, It is your choice to accept their thoughts or make them understand yours, the key is to be assertive and not adamantly try to beat them down to agreeing your views. They eventually may agree to your stand but it is up to you to drive them to that stage. Through experience I have learnt or rather agreed to an adage “Silence in Golden”. It is in the best interest of the team to speak up and share your experiences but you need to be careful to assess if you are in a position to do so, to be confident about the fact that others are open to your thoughts and you yourself are not defensive towards those who challenge your thoughts.

A problem I face is that I am constantly thinking when someone else is sharing his thoughts, probably this is how I became addictive to my own opinions but I am surprised to see that I still have enough bandwidth to absorb what other have to say and try to align it to my views. I may accept or challenge them but I am glad enough to receive those views as they propel mine, they feed and provide manure to my stream of thoughts. We often ask others to speak up, promising not to be judgmental but we tend to fail to stick to our commitments. Be practical, assess the weight of what people say as most of the time you may encounter lost minds that merely tend to say something and do something else. I am not saying that everybody you come across will be opinionated, but you need to be careful to pick those who have a frank and honest opinion. I reiterate, don’t let this particular thought deter you when you approach any situation. The point is to be rational.

If given a chance to do something again, I am sure many of you would chose to do it differently in a different frame of time, the questions I why? The answer is simple, because you have thought of it a thousand times and come to an explanation why it didn’t work out the way you desired the first time itself. Maybe you do get a chance to do it again, hopefully you will succeed but what if you fail, would you find another explanation for your failure, if the answer is yes, then you need to do a bit of self analysis. Is it really worth to look for an excuse if we would still be looking for even more excuses? It’s good to analyze your mistakes and not to repeat them but it’s not worth it looking an excuse for your failure. If its tough for you it can be tough for others too. The challenge and oppurtunity is to Own it!

Mohit Chopra
mohitchopra1@gmail.com
7th Dec 2009