I have been there,
An ear to some,
One to care,
At times just to shun,
I may not be the first you came to,
But I never showed you my back,
Maybe you were lost in the blue,
And I didn’t show you the right track,
But I believe I gave you comfort,
I believe I made a little difference,
I tried to understand why you were hurt,
I tried not to make you tense,
Whenever you spoke of those who broke your heart,
I remembered those who broke mine,
I knew I would be overlooked from the start,
But I still gave you my time,
Maybe you felt good,
Maybe you didn’t,
Maybe I changed your mood,
Maybe I just couldn’t,
But did I ever ask,
How come you thought of me?
Before me, where did you bask,
Before me, who did you see?
I did feel connected to you,
I did feel we were together,
But I guess I was just a sink to you,
Just as you felt better,
Oh yes, I did hear from you,
At times when you were down and out,
And then you were gone before I knew,
And I had lost another bout,
It wasn’t just one of you,
Yep, there’s a myriad of yous,
Guess I didn’t have a clue,
That I was just your muse,
Who allowed you to imagine,
Who heard your inane thoughts,
Who alleviated your pain,
Gave you high like a few tequila shots,
One thing I would agree to,
I spoke of my life too,
But then do you anymore have a clue,
How difficult it is for me too,
And I am lonely now,
I guess I am more than that,
I just don’t know how,
And when I stopped being the careless brat,
I don’t know when I first happened,
The first time I shed a tear,
First time my heart saddened,
First time I admitted to my fear,
And I can’t recall it,
And no one else could either,
Coz’ I alone know that bit,
And my memories too whether,
It would all be erased,
Coz I shared it with none,
My pain wouldn’t be embraced,
And to your eyes there would be none,
I admit to it now,
I was wrong,
And I know how,
And the feeling is growing strong,
I should have let someone in,
And now I just am too closed,
I feel as if I have committed a sin,
And I dislike it the most,
Oh yeah, I am lonely,
As lonely as it gets,
My days are no more sunny,
My heart always frets,
I wish I too had someone,
Who offered me a soft shoulder,
Not make me a tool for pun,
And kick me like a boulder,
Oh yeah, I am lonely,
As lonely as it gets,
I smile, but it’s no more funny,
Like I am paying for my past life debts,
Oh yeah, I am lonely,
As lonely as it gets,
Oh yeah, someone else too is lonely,
All the tears my eye sheds,
Oh, yeah I am lonely,
As lonely as it gets…
Love One Love All
Mohit Chopra
1.10.2010
