कल रात कोई चुपके से मेरे ख्वाब चुरा गया...

कल रात कोई चुपके से मेरे ख्वाब चुरा गया,
नींद थी गहरी मेरी,
कोई आ के जगा गया,

सोचा था सहला जाएगा वो,
अपने नर्म हाथों से,
पता नहीं था यूँ धोका दे जाएगा,
अपनी प्यारी बातों से,

सहमा सहमा, कुछ घबराया सा,
जाग रहा हूँ अकेला अब मैं,
आँखों को मसलता, ढूँढता एक साया सा,
भटक रहा हूँ अब मैं,

मैं जिस रहा पे चलना भूल गया था,
उस राह पे कोई ले आया मुझे,
जब चलना फिर से सीख रहा था,
कोई तन्हा छोड़ गया मुझे,

सवालों से घिरा,
सवाल हर पल खुद से करता हूँ मैं,
छुपाये अपना चेहरा,
आईनों से बचता हूँ मैं,

के दिल तो टुटा ही हुआ था मेरा,
उसे चकना चूर करने की ज़हमत क्यों की,
क्या जुर्म था वो मेरा,
जिसे बताने की भी ज़रूरत न समझी,

क्यों ख्वाब मेरे हमेशा अधूरे रह जाते है,
क्यों प्यार के मंज़र बस मंज़र बन के रह जाते है,
क्यों हकीकत से हम अनजान रह जाते है,
क्यों उम्मीद के सहारे भवंदर में फस जाते है,

नकार तो सकता हूँ मैं इस दर्द को,
कोई और राह भी तो नहीं है,
बस पूछता हूँ ये खुद को,
के ज़िन्दगी अब भी इम्तेहान ही क्यों ले रही है...


Love One Love All
Mohit Chopra
28th Nov 2010
9:45 to 10 pm

You are the one I waited for...

You are the one I waited for,
Days and night, all the while,
You are the one I always searched for,
Pacing through life’s each mile,

You are the tune that I hum all the time,
The song that I never wrote,
It doesn’t matter if it doesn’t rhyme,
Cause there’s you in every note,

You are my confession,
One I could never make,
You are the pristine passion,
One that I would never fake,

You are the words I listen now,
Everything else is nothing,
To you, my wait took a bow,
All this while I had been just waiting,

You are the script,
In which I play a part,
Nothing will now go adrift,
I won’t let this fall apart,

You are the belief I was looking for,
With my arms wide open,
Waiting for the clouds to pour,
To save me from the glazing sun,

You are the tear in my eye,
That I shed only in times of joy,
You are my goodbye,
To the times, that were nothing but wry,

You are my flight,
Into the world of my own,
Where I see no plight,
Not a moment to mourn,

You are the one I waited for,
Lead me wherever you wish to,
Coz you are the one I waited for,
And I want nothing more but you…

Love One Love All

Mohit Chopra
19 Nov’ 2010

It's funny...

It’s funny,
How I wait for those little things,
It’s funny,
Like I am being chased by a cupid with wings,

It’s funny,
How many times I say I miss you,
It’ funny,
How I keep calling to tell you,

It’s funny,
How I feel when you don’t say you miss me,
It’s funny,
No matter how many times you already said it to me,

It’s funny,
How I keep looking at my inbox for a mail,
It’s funny,
How your sad face turns me pale,

It’s funny,
How I ask you each time how you are,
It’s funny,
How you remind me each time we’r too far,

It’s funny,
How I keep looking at your pics,
It’s funny,
How I remember all those clicks,

It’s funny,
How I think of all those times we spent together,
It’s funny,
How I feel the distance is for the better,

It’s funny,
How I keep coming back to you,
It’s funny,
How you disappear like the morning dew,

It’s funny,
How many times I tell how much I love you,
It’s funny,
Coz I have never said so many times “I love you”

Mohit Chopra
Love One Love All
7th Oct 2010
2:10 - 2:16 am

Aur ye aaj bhi mohbbat karti hai mujhse…

Apni sanson ki awaaz me sun sakta hun,
Dil jab dhadakta hai to uski halchal main sun sakta hun,
Apne sinne ko us pal main hilta dekh sakta hun,
Us pal ko main har tarah mehsoos kar sakta hun,

Aur usi pal ko nahi,
Zindagi ki har chotti badi baat,
Banti bigadti kahi,
Kuch uljhi suljhi chotti badi baat,

Jaise chhat pe ghumta pankhe ki awaaz,
Khidki khatkhtati hui,
Hawa me terti dhul ke andaaz,
Surya ki kirne laplapati hui,

Wo sadak pe sabziyaan bechta koi,
Log anganit takrate sambhalte,
Kisi se kuch kehta puchta koi,
Sab apni raah pe phir chal dete,

Kuch rukta nahi,
Waqt tertaa jaata hai,
Log puchte nahi,
Bas mera dil kehta jaata hai,

Ke main bhi hun,
Is bhidd me khada kahin,
Ke main bhi hun,
Tum mujhe dekhte kyu nahi,

Nazarandaaz kar rahe ho kyu mujhe,
Kyu mera kandhaa dabate chale,
Kyu nahi dekh paate tum mujhe,
Kyu ho sab ke sab manchale,

Ke main sab paa ke bhi,
Kyu andhura mehsoos karta hun,
Ke main muskura ke bhi,
Gam hi mehsoos karta hun,

Kyu sab ke saath ho ke bhi,
Har lamha khud ko tanha samjhta hun,
Kyu itni baar khud ko aazma ke bhi,
Nakamyaab khud ko samjhta hun,

Kyu itne jawaab sab ko de ke bhi,
Khud hi se sawaal karta hun,
Har ladai se door bhaag ke bhi,
Khud hi se main ladta hun,

Kyu apno se,
Aaj bhi kuch nahi keh sakta hun,
Kyu ajnabiyon se,
Zindagi baant sakta hun,

Kya main aaj bhi tanha hun,
Ya bas ye mohbbat hai meri tanhai se,
Ke aaj bhi main ise chodne se darta hun,
Aur ye aaj bhi mohbbat karti hai mujhse…

Love One Love All
Mohit Chopra
25th September 2010

This note in no way represents that I feel lonely in your presence, but rather that I am loved so much by loneliness that it’s just not letting me leave it…

Baandhe rakhi thi umeedon ki ek dori...

Baandhe rakhi thi umeedon ki ek dori,
Nazuk the haath tab se,
Maalum na tha har khwaish ho jaayegi chori,
Khwab bhi lagenge laapata se,

Chahtein garm loo ki tarah ban jayengi,
Is baat ka hume ilm na tha,
Koshishen sirf koshishen reh jayengi,
Zindagi ne diya kabhi ye ishara na tha,

Har aandhi se lad jaane ke irade rakhe the,
Hawaein bhi muhn mod jaayengi, ye socha na tha,
Himmaton ke pul har nadi pe bana rakhe the,
Baraf ki tarah pigal jaayenge, ye socha na tha,

Lapata kuch chehre zehan me,
Kuch awaazen goonja karti hai,
Jaane hun kya main apne hoshon hawas me,
Meri rooh mujhse khud hi pucha karti hai,

Gumraah main nahi,
Har raah hi ho gayi hai,
Gumshuda main nahi,
Har pehchaan ho gayi hai,

Aaj bhi awaaz deta hun,
Meri shaksiyat ke sanatte me vo goonjti hai,
Aaj bhi kuch likh deta hun,
Bina panno ke wo bhi apna arth kho deti hai,

Ab haath mulayam to nahi,
Lankirein bhi kuch dhundli ho chuki hai,
Aankhon me wo chamak bhi nahi,
Ke aashayein ojhal jo ho chuki hai,

Har ghoont me gala sookh jaata hai,
Jaise pyaas andar abhi aur bhi bhari hai,
Har nazar me kuch dhundla nazar aata hai,
Jaise dekhno ko duniya aur bhi badi hai,

Batorta hun apne khoye iradon ko,
Ke guzaarni zindagi abhi kuch aur bhi hai,
Ek mauka aur deta hun apni talaashon ko,
Ke dhundni manzilein abhi kuch aur bhi hai…

Love One Love All
Mohit Chopra
29th Aug 2010
1:15- 1:27 am

If words could express what I feel...

I now reap,
I now weep,
Coz I was weak,
Sanity I seek,

Coz life’s blatant,
My ways are different,
My heart’s latent,
And my soul’s hesitant,

To take a leap,
A promise to keep,
Pain did seep,
Overshadowing joys heap,

I look, I hide,
No rule to abide,
Left everything aside,
A gap too wide,

It hurts a lot,
Like a dark spot,
A never ending drought,
All battles I fought,

I don’t repent,
Coz this is what life lent,
And I won’t relent,
If this is what it meant,

I will share,
I will hear,
I will care,
Yes I will dare,

To live as I said I would,
To the best I ever could,
I know I really should,
And I truly would,

Coz you are too much to me,
You are all I see,
You are all the joy and glee,
You are what it could ever be,

So join me and never let go,
Listen to me, as I will tell you so,
You are the sweetest I will ever know,
And one day life would show,

That life’s more than what we have had,
And there is no reason to be sad,
I know you, that’s enough a reason to be glad,
Without you, I think I’ll go mad,

Just hold my hand and we’ll walk it through,
With time, our love grew,
Let’s not let it disappear as the morning dew,
You are the life, I ever knew…

Love One Love All
Mohit Chopra
27th June 2010

The intricacies of my imagination...

The intricacies of my imagination,
Do turn out to be inane,
But so will each creation,
Anything can look mundane,

Not everything will make sense,
Not everything is meant to,
That’s just the pretense,
All you ever knew,

But now the time is ripe,
To let go of the presumptions,
There would always be people to snipe,
Coz’ this is how life functions,

So I fly high,
And go as deep as I can,
I seldom shy,
And do all that I can,

Coz’ life is short,
We have to make it grand,
There is always a lot,
Be creative like the sand,

Or the air that blows it around,
And chooses what it may be,
Opportunities are always abound,
It’s for your eyes to see,

I love when everything goes haywire,
Coz that’s when my imagination goes places,
Everything hangs by the wire,
As we go through life’s mazes,

It’s that high, for which I crave,
It spices up my life a bit,
It may not need to be grave,
But it makes my eyes lit,

Not everything I imagine is beautiful,
It’s not supposed to be that way,
But it’s always something to mull,
And that’s my life’s hay,

I imagine a world of my own,
I imagine coz I let myself to,
Over the years my imagination has grown,
It’s something I love to do,

And so I love the intricacies of my imagination,
No matter how lonely they are,
I am just proud of my creation,
I imagine, that will propel me far…

Love One Love All
Mohit Chopra
21st June 2010

Kyu phir aaj ye bekhudi...

Kyu phir aaj ye bekhudi,
Kyu phir aaj wahi nadaaniyaan,
Kyu kar rahe ho yun dillagi,
Ke ab to hai bhi nahi koi majburiyaan,

Kashmakash to pehle bhi bahut thi,
Jawaab milte nahi the bas sawalon ke,
Ladakpan tab bhi tu karti thi,
Nishaan ab bhi hai is dil pe, tere kadmon ke,

Ke rond ke chal di thi tu,
Bhula diya tha har haseen pal ko,
Ke mud ke bhi na dekhi thi tu,
Kis haal me choda hai mujhko,

Aaj phir paigaam tera aaya,
Is ishare ko main abhi tak samjh na paaya,
Achanak se phir tera khayal aaya,
Aur maine khud ko bahut samjhaya,

Ke naadani na kar ae bechain dil,
Ke vo phir khamosh ho jaayegi,
Ke kitna kamzor hai mera dil,
Use vo phir kuchal ke chali jaayegi,

Par sambhale na gaya mujse khud ko,
Aur ek paigam maine bhi bheja diya,
Andaaz tha jawaab ka mujhko,
Par unhone to sawal hi nazarandaz kar diya,

Ke aaj phir puchta hun wahi sawaal tumse,
Chahat kya hai tumhare betaab dil ki,
Nahi to puchta rahunga humesha khud se,
Kya wajah hai teri is berukhi ki…

Love One Love All
Mohit Chopra
20th June 2010

You just don’t love me enough to love me enough…!

I know it now,
More than I ever did,
I don’t know how,
But so far it was hid,

You never loved me enough,
To feel it inside,
To love me enough,
Just left my love aside,

I am no more in the dark,
As I see everything I didn’t,
I see we miss the spark,
Somehow earlier I couldn’t,

I’ll tell you how I know it,
I’ll tell you what makes it evident,
I will tell you every bit,
Coz now I have the opportunity that time has lent,

You don’t ever look back,
When I drop you home,
You just keep walking on the track,
And my heart looks like an empty dome,

You don’t hang up the your call,
When I am calling you up,
That moment makes me feel so small,
But I keep trying, never give up,

You don’t try to meet up,
Find an excuse just to catch my glimpse,
Come over every hiccup,
But all my hopes did mince,

You don’t get up,
Just to have dance with me,
You don’t give up,
Any argument you have with me,

You don’t hold my hand,
When we go for a movie,
I don’t know if you pretend,
When things get a bit groovy,

But I always see you sliding away,
Wandering farther from me,
And at that moment life seems astray,
And loses all glee,

You don’t think of us together in times ahead,
You don’t really think that way,
And these thoughts haunt me as I hit the bed,
And with dismay I end my day,

Maybe I am not the one for you,
Maybe you think of someone else,
But life doesn’t give me that cue,
And doesn’t ring any bells,

But now I know, as I never did,
Though the revelation has been tough,
But I have finally taken off the lid,
You just don’t love me enough to love me enough…

Love One Love All
Mohit Chopra
10th June 2010

The Bully in me...

The bully in me died out,
I had forgotten if I was ever one,
I had given up the bout,
coz harshness can't be undone,

nor the moments when u make someone feel cheated,
as he trusted you like a friend,
and his amity was never greeted,
and all his hopes were bend,

Of all the things I dislike,
one of them is the way people act,
at the beginning it may not strike,
and your inanity remains intact,

The way you try to fool others,
laugh at their expense,
to you, it never bothers,
but the other one gets tense,

who's guilty of the indifference,
who shall take the blame,
you might be deceived with the appearance,
and lose this intricate game,

there's no point thinking about any of this,
it's really not worth the time,
but it's stinging as a snakes hiss,
and I know I should be fine,

coz I have been guilty of the same game,
I have played so many of you out,
and I never felt the shame,
and I never had the slightest of doubt,

I too bashed you around with words,
made fun of your dreams,
shooed you away like flocking birds,
ignored your hearts screams,

and so now I face the grunt,
so now I pay the price,
and now my fingers are burnt,
and now my dismay is on a rise,

I shall not repent,
I shall reap what I sowed,
coz I know no one will relent,
coz I too never bowed,

lets hope I don't do it again,
no matter how good it feels,
coz it gives such a pain,
if not treated on time,it never heals...


Love One Love All
Mohit Chopra
4th June 2010

Numbers!

Ten seconds of fear,
Before you take the stage,
Sixty seconds you take to hear,
And efface my rage,

Nineteen notifications on your facebook wall,
And each one speaks of you,
All I have had is just two brawls,
And I was hated by all the ex’s you still knew,

Two minutes of doubt,
When you think of calling me,
Five minutes you take to shout,
When I am nowhere to see,

Hundred grams of chocolate,
You eat to calm yourself down,
Three times if I am late,
I inadvertently make you frown,

Seven times I forgot your brother’s name,
And you said I didn’t care about you at all,
Gifted you a seven and half inch photo frame,
And all the anger became a bit small,

Eight am I had to wake you,
I would be your alarm all the time,
Ten am our rendezvous was due,
Waiting for you I lived my prime,

Two years for which I was with you,
Was a journey of its kind,
One and a half without you,
Have turned my life so blind,

Sixty miles an hour,
And you held me so firm,
Six shots of tequila,
And we got a bit dumb,

Four movies we ever watched together,
In each one I held your hand,
Three dates were cancelled due to the weather,
And we were far apart, both in a different land,

Twenty carats of gold,
Will make you smile,
One diamond in its hold,
Will go a longer mile,

Once again you are confused,
I have no clue about it though,
For the Nth time you are scared,
And the feeling is all set to grow,

Give me one hint,
If you want me to take you through,
Give me just one hint,
And I would get you through,

For love there are no measures,
Even if everything else could be,
They are nothing but numbers,
Nothing counts as much as your love for me…

Love One Love All,
Mohit Chopra
22nd May 2010

I still hope ...

I still hope,
That you will stick by,
I still hope,
That you will stand by,

As you have done,
Through thick and thin,
As you have done,
Angel you have been,

I still wait,
That you’ll ask what’s wrong,
I still wait,
For you to join me, sing our song,

As you have given,
Me so many reasons to smile,
As you have given,
Love to me, all this while,

I still ask you questions,
Hoping you wouldn’t mind me asking,
I still ask you questions,
And tell you how I feel, without hiding,

But I feel you are letting go,
Of me and my side,
But I feel you are letting go,
And I have nowhere to hide,

I can’t see you going away,
Coz I never thought you would,
I can’t see you going away,
I loved you as much as I could,

But you were not mine I knew,
As you held someone else in your heart,
But you were not mine I knew,
I was just ferrying you around in life’s cart,

I still hope,
That I’ll see you again,
I still hope,
All this doesn’t go in vain,

And I will always hold you close,
To my heart and my soul,
And I will always hold you close,
As you are indeed my soul…

Love One Love All
Mohit Chopra
17th May 2010 11:00 – 11:10 pm

yun hi kuch likdh diya tha arso pehle, aaj phir pad ke ehsaas jaag uthe...

Kyu kisi k intezaar me,
Har lamha jine ko man karta hai,
Kyu kisi k pyaar me,
Khud ko bhula jaane ko man karta hai,

Kyu kisi k liye,
Sab kuch bhula dete hai hum,
Kyu mere liye,
Kuch bhula nahi sakte tum,

K kyu main yu chahu,
Aur kya main keh jaaun,
K kya tum ab chaho,
Kya main kar jauun,

Baat ab ye nahi,
K tum mujse pyaar nahi karte,
Baat ab ye bhi nahi,
K tum mera intezaar nahi karte,

Baat ab ye hai ki,
hum chah kar bhi nahi milte,
baat ye hai ki,
alag ho gaye hai humare raste,

k ab kya hai kar sakte,
k shayad bahut dur hum nikal aaye hai,
k ab kya tumhare bina hai hum ji sakte,
ya hum tumhare hi ho gaye hai,

par tumhari tamanaon me hum shaamil nahi,
shayad tumhe khush rakh pane k hum kaabil nahi,
k shayad humari koi bhi koshish mukamal nahi,
k shaayd is samundar ka koi saahil nahi,

ab to yahi darkhwast hai tumse,
k mujhe dur na karo mujhi se,
k aaj main ye puchne pe majbur hu khudse,
k aisi bhi kya khaata hui mujhi se…

I don't know how to get you back...

one day i saw you,
another i didn't,
and before i knew,
i just couldn't,

probably i shouldn't have said goodbye,
maybe i was just looking for a reason to fight,
maybe i was too dumb not to try,
and let you go off my sight,

i know i had issues,
but so did you,
but you were my only muse,
pure as the morning dew,

i no more seek any answer,
i have let go off many things,
i have dropped my armour,
have cut my wings,

i know i shouldn't miss you,
i know i shouldn't go back on my words,
but i no more have any clue,
my mind is like the flocking birds,

and as i see you passing away,
i just want to feel the innocence again,
that i saw when you did play,
on the swings, though a bit inane,

i don’t know if i should,
but i don’t want to give up,
i have done all i could,
and there have been many a hiccup,

but i kept moving,
as i had said i will,
but times have been testing,
not the same old run of the mill,

I just want to try again,
so that we can remember each other with a smile,
i don’t want our relationship to go in vain,
because it was more than just a while,

i know it is difficult for you to trust,
but you know that i can adapt,
our memoirs may have caught rust,
but some have been well kept,

i don’t want much,
just the chance to cherish my past,
i don’t hope much,
but i believe these things would last,

so please give it a thought,
not litter the beautiful times,
the happiness they brought,
are much purer than our crimes...


LOVE ONE LOVE ALL

MOHIT CHOPRA

1-4-2009

Random thoughts of an idle mind...

I cry out loud,
Each day and night,
M crazy without a doubt,
My minds in a fight,

I rock n roll,
Each morning I get up,
I rise and fall,
Still my heartbeats drop,

I laze around,
And the dates change,
Thoughts do hound,
They are just out of my range,

I save my pain,
For times unknown,
Joy goes in vain,
Memoirs to mourn,

How much it aches,
Throughout my soul,
As my hurt wakes,
To a big dark mole,

They call me names,
Hide my existence,
Abuses and shames,
Bounded by a fence,

They want to teach,
How they wanted to be,
Just to preach,
And for the world to see,

They say it’s relevant,
For my growth,
It sounds important,
A stain on the cloth,

That I wear,
When they are with me,
Time to spare,
But they take away my glee,

Just follow orders,
Just be a dummy,
And that’s what bothers,
Hang around like a sissy,

Oh dear, I am lost,
Yes I am indeed,
Befriending a ghost,
Feeding my greed,

I have never been here before,
Never had a chance to dance,
I want to be wild to the core,
Not just give it a sideward glance,

No more want to be perfect,
Just to be loved,
It’s ok being circumspect,
Till I am loved,

I want to sing,
To the tune that plays,
Just do my thing,
Whatever my mind says,

There was such a time,
When I was funny,
But it has been a change of clime,
My days are no more sunny,

No reason to worry,
Just want to get over it,
Oh yeah, I am in a hurry,
And my eyes are lit,

Coz’ I see what is beyond,
Beyond the idiosyncrasies of me,
Of myself m fond,
And that does bring some glee,

So put on your ear plugs,
Coz m gonna shout,
Get lost you thugs,
Coz from now on I’ll be loud…


Love One Love All
Mohit Chopra
24 January 2010

It’s one of those days...

It’s one of those days,
When I just wanna close my eyes and think of you

It’s one of those days,
When I don’t mind getting barked at by your dog,

It’s one of those days,
When I don’t wanna to rush through the breakfast to beat the traffic,

It’s one of those days,
When I don’t wanna to shout at some for not driving well enough,

It’s one of those days,
When I wanna keep driving when I have to drop you somewhere on the way to office,

It’s one of those days,
When I don’t wanna take any calls on the way and just listen to you,

It’s one of those days,
When I wanna kiss your forehead before you leave my sight for the day,

It’s one of those days,
When I wanna run madly in the office corridor,

It’s one of those days,
When I wanna take the day off and drop by each of my college buddies,

It’s one of those days,
When I wanna take them out and talk of the fun times we had together,

It’s one of those days,
When I wanna fight to pay the bill at the restaurant,

It’s one of those days,
When I wanna go shopping on the street and bargain just to show off,

It’s one of those days,
When I wanna jump in the puddle of water just to make you smile,

It’s one of those days,
When I wanna climb on to the mango tree and look what’s happening in the neighbor’s house,

It’s one of those days,
When I wanna grab a cycle and circle the whole playground,

It’s one of those days,
When I wanna get wet in the rain and let the cold air shake me,

It’s one of those days,
When I wanna take a dip into the lake and swim as you watch me from the deck,

It’s one of those days,
When I wanna have u sleep on my lap while I read out my poems to you,

It’s one of those days,
When I wanna spin round and round till I am dizzy enough to fall down,

It’s one of those days,
When I wanna dance on the streets and laugh back at the people who laugh at me,

It’s one of those days,
When I wanna sing out loud till someone shouts at me to shut up,

It’s one of those days,
When I wanna watch back to back movies and still go for more,

It’s one of those days,
When I wanna dress up just to go for a walk,

It’s one of those days,
When I wanna cook for my family and have dinner with the TV switched off,

It’s one of those days,
When I wanna call you at the night and not worry about saying Good Night,

It’s one of the days,
That I wanna live and not just dream about,

It’s one of those days,
When I don’t just want to let it be but do all that I desire

Love One Love All
Mohit Chopra
7th May 2010

Oh yeah, I am lonely

I have been there,

An ear to some,

One to care,

At times just to shun,

I may not be the first you came to,

But I never showed you my back,

Maybe you were lost in the blue,

And I didn’t show you the right track,

But I believe I gave you comfort,

I believe I made a little difference,

I tried to understand why you were hurt,

I tried not to make you tense,

Whenever you spoke of those who broke your heart,

I remembered those who broke mine,

I knew I would be overlooked from the start,

But I still gave you my time,

Maybe you felt good,

Maybe you didn’t,

Maybe I changed your mood,

Maybe I just couldn’t,

But did I ever ask,

How come you thought of me?

Before me, where did you bask,

Before me, who did you see?

I did feel connected to you,

I did feel we were together,

But I guess I was just a sink to you,

Just as you felt better,

Oh yes, I did hear from you,

At times when you were down and out,

And then you were gone before I knew,

And I had lost another bout,

It wasn’t just one of you,

Yep, there’s a myriad of yous,

Guess I didn’t have a clue,

That I was just your muse,

Who allowed you to imagine,

Who heard your inane thoughts,

Who alleviated your pain,

Gave you high like a few tequila shots,

One thing I would agree to,

I spoke of my life too,

But then do you anymore have a clue,

How difficult it is for me too,

And I am lonely now,

I guess I am more than that,

I just don’t know how,

And when I stopped being the careless brat,

I don’t know when I first happened,

The first time I shed a tear,

First time my heart saddened,

First time I admitted to my fear,

And I can’t recall it,

And no one else could either,

Coz’ I alone know that bit,

And my memories too whether,

It would all be erased,

Coz I shared it with none,

My pain wouldn’t be embraced,

And to your eyes there would be none,

I admit to it now,

I was wrong,

And I know how,

And the feeling is growing strong,

I should have let someone in,

And now I just am too closed,

I feel as if I have committed a sin,

And I dislike it the most,

Oh yeah, I am lonely,

As lonely as it gets,

My days are no more sunny,

My heart always frets,

I wish I too had someone,

Who offered me a soft shoulder,

Not make me a tool for pun,

And kick me like a boulder,

Oh yeah, I am lonely,

As lonely as it gets,

I smile, but it’s no more funny,

Like I am paying for my past life debts,

Oh yeah, I am lonely,

As lonely as it gets,

Oh yeah, someone else too is lonely,

All the tears my eye sheds,

Oh, yeah I am lonely,

As lonely as it gets…

Love One Love All

Mohit Chopra

1.10.2010